Why I Am a ChristianIntroductionAbout twelve years ago, I developed an interest in Christian apologetics. My interest was spurred on by the arrival of the internet in my life. For years, growing up in a small town in the Bible Belt South, there was not much opportunity to meet people who had opposing viewpoints or even many who could explain their own with any degree of accuracy, for that matter. My first real introduction to diversity of thought was entering college at the University of South Carolina in 1995. Even then it took a while to stop being closed off to other ideas.
You cannot blame me. I had not only spent my life exclusively in a small town, but I was educated from elementary through high school in a Christian school heavily burdened with the theological leanings of Bob Jones University. It is not much of an exaggeration to claim the beginning, middle, and end of the theology I learned was all about Bob Jones himself. There were mentions of other theologians, like Martin Luther, but big details were kept out, such as Luther’s rabid anti-Semitism. But I did not know that at the time.
The most dangerous person around is the one who knows just enough to get in trouble. Mine started when I first logged onto the internet in 1996. Back then, the World Wide Web was the wild frontier, full of message boards and chat rooms populated by hordes of people with opposing viewpoints, hardly any of which I had ever heard straight from the horse’s mouth, battling away with each other. The people who fascinated me the most were the atheists. I knew I had a calling to convert these poor heathens.
I made an obnoxious jackass out of myself for months. For one, I was overly aggressive. After all, atheists were the scourge of the world because they secretly worshipped the devil, drank the blood of Christian babies. Or something likes that. Why be anything less than contemptuous, right? You have probably already figured out the second point—I had no clue what I was talking about. I did not even know my own religion, much less what anyone else thought about it. So I started digging into Christian thought. I admit, I was reluctant to do so. My old school had ingrained in me paranoia about false teachings destroying my faith.
The details of that journey are important right this moment. Suffice to say, for four years, I kept apologetics up as a devoted hobby. I never lost my faith or had it even particularly challenged. Truth be told, I began to feel cheated by my decade long BJU indoctrination. Very quickly, I began to cast off fundamentalism for a more spiritual grasp of Christianity. The thought would have terrified me five years previously.
In the middle of all this, I read Bertrand Russell’s
Why I Am Not a Christian. The book had been touted as a classic in the converting Christians into atheists. I was unimpressed. The book turned out to be a collection of essays Russell had written explaining his objections to Christianity. There was no cohesion between them. He did not really build an argument so much as critique some moral standing here and praise Thomas Paine for writing the
The Age of Reason. The only way one could cast off Christianity after reading the book would be to be predisposed to convert to atheism to begin with.
I followed the path to
The Age of Reason and soon figured out most other people who read
Why I Am Not a Christian had, too. Thomas Paine’s objections to Christianity are clearly laid out. You do not have to read it, either. Just do a Google search for atheism and you will see the standard line regurgitated over and over again. For a bunch of self-described freethinkers, they do love towing a party line.
The interesting part of all this is, while there are mountains of apologetics books responding to
The Age of Reason, I never found a published argument for why someone was a Christian. There are plenty of testimonials out, yes, but they all speak on a spiritual level. What I mean by that is they generally follow a pattern of how the author came to faith, usually after something tragic happened, and rarely delves into anything beyond a Sunday school level of theology. Considering my criticism of Russell’s effort as an unconvincing collection of personal opinion, I guess they were similar in style.
At that point, I started gathering together material for a web page attempting to combine apologetics and personal experience into one narrative like I had wished to see myself. Life got in the way and I had to scuttle the project for eye surgery, a long recovery, and three years of law school. It was law school that nearly killed the idea completely and not because of time constraints.
I have grinded my axe about Regent University enough that I do not have to spell out specifics here. Suffice to say I thought if the desire to become a lawyer was burned into a Christian’s mind, he would have a certain intelligence, maturity, and edginess. I was wrong. With very few exceptions, I discovered sheltered, immature, children who had no clue what the real world was all about at best and ignorant, judgmental bigots at worst. Again, it was not everyone, but it was enough to cause me to reexamine my religious beliefs.
I had and still have little to no desire to engage in apologetics with atheists any longer What I developed wasa need to look internally. I was no longer the guy who blindly accepted BJU theology like I did in high school. Now I discovered there were Christians whom I did not like because of their beliefs even though I felt comfortable with the spirituality of other Christians. In other words, I needed to figure out where I stood. For me, rubberstamping something Christian is no longer automatically acceptable. You have to prove to me you are right, mostly because I just might have a difficult time imagining the afterlife as heaven with you in it.
With that in mind, my original vision is reborn. There are caveats, of course. I am neither a theologian, nor a prophet. While I will quote sources and link to them when available online, this is just me talking. I am not trying to change your attitude if you are a Christian who disagrees with me. I am not trying to convert anyone who is not a Christian, though if I help facilitate a change for the better in anyone, yay me. If you want to comment on, question, or criticize anything, feel free. But, as I said above, I am not looking for debate. I am reallyjust throwing my thoughts out for public consumption.
Here area few housekeeping notes. I have mapped this out like a cross country road trip. I know I am going to start in Los Angeles and end up in New York. Along the way, I want to stop in Chicago. But other than that, it is going to be a let us see what happens adventure. I am not going to post these on any set schedule because I want each segment to be done as thoroughly as possible without any time constraints.
Fret not, I suspect the Spirit—literally—will move an a fairly regular basis. I am also going to link all subsequent segments to this page so that if someone comes in late and is interested, he will not have to dig through tons of posts to find the rest.
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